The Wind-Up Bird Sings.

I slept with misery buried deep in my chest and hopes in my head.
And now its beginning to rust.


I almost fell asleep while walking from school.
Been awake for 3 days.
And not because of stuffs.
Its coz i have far too much outings.
But its alright. I enjoy laughing at a time like this.
Thanks everyone for making me feel a bit better about myself.
Except that girl who stared at me the whole time while I was reading my book
Oh and lets appreciate people who i neglected.
Ron, Adib, Azri, Deniza, Jared, Johnboy, Jacob, Rabin, Celest.
Its starting to sound like an award speech.

I'm Jamal.
Hey hey Little Razorblade.

Just because.

People always say love at first sight.
That love is better at first sight.
I don't think that thing that happens at first sight is love.
I think Love kind of creeps up on you.
When you least expect it.



You grew on me like a tumour
And you spread through me like malignant melanoma
And now you’re in my heart
I should’ve cut you out back at the start

Now I’m afraid there’s no cure for me
No dose of emotional chemotherapy
Can halt my pathetic decline
I should’ve had you removed back when you were benign

I picked you up like a virus
Like meningo-fucking-coccal meningitis
Now I can’t feel my legs
When you’re around I can’t get out of bed

I’ve left it too late to risk an operation
I know there’s no hope for a clean amputation
The successful removal of you
Would probably kill me too

You grew on me like carcinoma
Crept up on me like untreated glaucoma
Now I find it hard to see
This untreated dose of you has blinded me

I should’ve consulted my local physician
I’m stuck now forever with this tunnel vision
My periphery is screwed
Wherever I look now, all I see is you

When we first met you seemed fickle and shallow
But my armour was no match for your poison arrow
You are wedged inside my chest
If I tried to take you out now I might bleed to death
I’m feeling short of breath

You grew on me like a tumour
And you spread through me like malignant melanoma
I guess I never knew
How fast a little mole can grow on you

I'm Jamal.

The Great Escape.

Haha to me.

Yeah Jamal.
You heard what I said.
You're nonsense.
So we laughed at you.

You Liar.

Sometime you just do.
Don't make promises you can't keep.
Fuck!

I'm Jamal.
Ron where are you.
I desperately need to talk to you.

Way to go, friend.

"Your hair is damn curly and sexy"
"Thanks"
"You know what I wished would happen now"
"What?"
"I want us to be captured by pirates who will strip us and tie us together face to face all naked with the ropes around us"
"What would they do such a thing"
"Perverted pirates. And you know what they would say?"
"I honestly have no idea"
"They will just say, ' In one hour,we're gonna throw you into the sea, so have a good time until then."
"Can you just go and sleep. I'll wake you up when the car reaches your place"


I don't mind if friends go drinking.
But please don't get too shitfaced till I have to travel.
I don't mind traveling to help someone.
But I seriously have no idea how to entertain them.
And you know there's a prob if a talkative person like me
have apparently nothing to talk about.
But out of all, the random conversations are just the worst.

I'm Jamal.
Coz it's all just a foolish game.

History.

I once had a girl or should I say, she once had me
She showed me her room. Isn't it good Norwegian wood?

She asked me to stay and told me sit anywhere
So I looked around and I noticed there wasn't a chair

I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine
We talked until two, and then she said, "It's time for bed,"

She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh
I told her I didn't, and crawled off to sleep in the bath

And when I awoke, I was alone. This bird has flown
So I lit a fire. Isn't it good Norwegian wood?

Let's Laugh.

Like the title says.
Lets laugh today.
I will tell you about my life soon.
Right now, I'll show you things that made me laughed.

Project Rockband


Anyway i found some nice song lately.
Will put them in my


You know I seriously found that some countries are retarded.
I mean they are so into religion that they even photoshop pic of album cover.
Like how Saudi Arabia photoshoped Mariah Careys album just coz
she was showing some skin. I'll post them here soon.

I'm Jamal.
The one thing I regret.
Is coming back to haunt me.

please oh please.

Lets take pictures.
To remember the time we have.
But please. Lets not take with same faces.
Coz if you do. I'll just make a .gif fill of all of your pics.
Like these few people!






I'm Jamal.
I laughed alot today.
Thank you. Come again.

I spent half an hour on this.

Apparently there was a story of some Irish guy going to a Festival, where he was comissioned to create a banner of 14 leprechauns. On his way to the festival, the wind blew the banner out, and it got tattered and ripped. What he does, he puts it back into one large banner, but to his surprise, there are 15 leprechauns on the banner now!!!!! Can you figure out this out?



Count them carefully if you really want to.
There was 14 leprechauns before. But after the reassembly, there was 15.
Which one of them are actually the extra?

I'm Jamal.
This drove me near to insanity.

Supposedly.

WAS SUPPOSED TO GO OUT WITH RON TODAY.
But it didn't happened.
Ahhh shit. We've got loads to talk about.
But I guess he is really down lately.
He told me some things that was quite shocking.
Didn't know his NS life was that terrible.
But anyways, i respect him for keeping it quiet
and turning up with at least a smile everytime.

Ahhhh.. shit. I really really want to meet him.
but no HOMO. Just bromance.

I've always wished things was going fine for me.
I think i'm starting to become real selfish.
I need to change and quick too.

I'm Jamal.
I care for people too much.
But i like it that way.

Use a Condom.

Art & Style.
Let's at least try to get along.

I'm Jamal.
Kiss kiss, Bang bang.
Pregnant prenant.
Married divorce.

Confused.

Someone called me today.
Telling me that my work was chosen by RP to be on the cover.
Now I have to write up a few lines about myself.
But when I ask what work it was, she said it was my little red dot piece.
I don't recall having done a little red dot piece.
I'm really worried that i may offend a few people
if my name was wrongly chosen and my name went onto
a design that is not mine.

I'm Jamal.
Decisions.Decisions.Decisions.

Stab Me.

Can.
Everyone.
Just.
Please.
Stop.
Being.
So.
Rigid.

I'm Jamal.
It's okay to relax once in a while.

The Speaker Resonates Your Name.

Let's start talking in codes.
Like the way I speak to you.
Our friend will find it rather peculiar.
And they'll start their own language too.

hahaha. that actually rhymed.
Reminds me of this poem I once read.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
Some poems rhyme
this one doesn't.

Besides miscellaneous stuffs
I been pretty paranoid lately
About things happening all around me
People, things, object, just everything.
One spark could make me go all paranoid.
And then a cool gust can just take the paranoia away.
I myself don't understand whats going on yet along explain it.
You know, some people just don't see how beautiful they are
Not in the sense of physically but you know.

Tomorrow is my UT.
And then its my holiday.
I'm getting teased alot lately.
Maybe I should do something about it.
Maybe I shouldn't.
Decisions, decisions and more decisions.
Lets fly a kite? Or a balloon. Or just a plastic bag.
Lets do something unexpected. Lets do something wild.
Lets do something freaky. Lets get crazy.
I mean who know right, I could be dead tomorrow. HAHA!

I'm Jamal.
Life is a Bitch.
But shes totally do-able.
She'll knock you around.
And then lend you a hand.

He's paranoid.

I so wish i didn't have to study.
I have a freaking UT at 8.30am later.
And directly after that i have to attend a competition that is part of the UT3.
I wonder what else could go wrong.

One more thing i hate.
Being the back up plan.
That's just sucks period blood.
They made plans and then they call it off because someone else could make it.
But then again, what makes me so high and mighty to be talking as such.
Funny much. Hmmm.. Ninjas makes good stalkers..
Growing up is tough. But studying for UT3 is tougher.

Let us remember.
Life is a beautiful mistake.
Its precious and fragile.
Sometimes more than we can take.
Its stronger than fire.
Greater than all the wars we wage.
I don't know what you wan me to be.
But I don't want to be perfect anymore.

I'm Jamal.
The constellations smiles on me tonight.

Irritated.

Some people just need to learn to shut the fuck up.
Fucking irritants. Here i am trying to study.
Some irritant kept complaining about how her probs.
IT'S JUST A TRIVIAL THING.
So what if people think your work ain't nice.
Just shut the FUCK up and move the FUCK on.
Fucking stupid.
Saying this is a lie. That is a lie.
Never wanting to trust anyone.
By all means just fucking do it already and don't corrupt my space.
I'm getting worked up for nothing!
FUCK!

I'm Jamal.
& I'm fucking going out for a walk.
FUCKING STUPID!

First dance.

She lied again.
I feel so dead now.
Just kidding.
I need to study.
UT3 is coming and i am scared shitless.
HAHAH!

I'm Jamal.
Hope everything turns out alright.

Can you feel it?

There's something different about today.
But I can't put my finger on it.
Whatever it is, I don't want it to end.
I'm so happy today.
I'm tooooo cheerful to even be thinking about feeling down.
Everything's is so bouncy and cheery today.
I wished today never ends.

I'm Jamal.
I hope you can move on with your life.
Just like you do.
Coz only you can make everything alright.
Just like you shoooby-doooo-doo-do..