I Write To Remember..

I need to let go..
A little Kindergarten nap time would help..
I'm done with my reckless thoughts..
That travels in sonic space endlessly..
And into my blue-screened mind..
The smallest things has the biggest reaction on me..
Even a small spark could start a spectral fire..
A push becomes a shove..
Days become months..

I stand alone amidst flesh-eating crows..
They perch on tall-standing fences that i built..
I waited for something to happen..
I'm waiting for anything to happen..
Nothing moves..Everything's still..
Walls started closing in on me..
Shouts brought me back from my reverie..

I'm walking but I'm not moving..
Treadmill streets of life they were..
I'm not rooted to the spot..
But i'm moving without movement..
A beam of light penetrated through thick opaque smoke..
Unknown light source..Unknown light source..
The sun emerged from its 5 years standstill..
I almost forgot the warmth of the sun..

Months went by like minutes..
Once again, darkness consumed the surface..
Building by building..
Block by block..
The song of silence never played any louder..
Everyone was shaken..
But i felt relieved..
Is this the comfort of being afraid..

You don't know what you got till its gone..
I went into this knowing i will fall behind..
Hallowed visions of you still chained to my mind..
But you give me the reason..
To sing my last thoughts..

I write to remember..

I'm Jamal..
That was such a release..
A non-sexual release..