The World.

Today i learned something.
No matter how much you try to ignore something.
Your mind and body will eventually remind of it again.

I'm in my room.
In the dark.
I'm trying to think logically.
But my brain is failing.
My heart is beating faster than usual.
And i am starting to get worried.
The attacks came back today.
Unfortunately it was in class.
I was lucky i had my pill.
I'm just wondering what if it happens in class in my fasting month?

I'm not one who dwells.
I'm not one who noses.
But everything is getting on my nerves nowadays.
And life is throwing everything in my way.

I'm just a human being.
And I'm still quite young.
I wanna live my life without _____ & _____.
I want to live my life free of _____&_____.
What are the blanks for?
I think those are the answers i have yet to find in my life now.

I'm Jamal.
Disappointed, upset, confused, anger & joy.
It all means the same thing to me now.