Too Much Of A Good Thing..

First things first..
Alif if you are reading this..
Don't worry my family have no idea..
And They don't even know i have a blog..
So its practically safe for me to let it out here..

Its been a really enjoyable month..
There's really nothing i would rather do before school starts anyway..
Hanging out with friends and just talking crapping is just the way life is like for me..
I mean no troubles, making good friends, understanding friends better and stuffs..
Pardon me for being so cynical so early in the post but i kinda forgot the troubles of the world..
And i have my friends to thank for that..I really appreciate it..
But as they say, all good things must come to an end..I mean everyone knows that..
But i just did not expect it to be this way..
I mean this is way to harsh for me even now..

I do not see Her often..
But the times i had seen Her, She's always joking around..
Now I've been told She has cancer..I mean come on..
I was laughing along while watching some vids at rons place when i was told about it..
To tell you the truth..When that word 'cancer' came out..
I swear..I think the world kinda stop for a moment..
Yeah it sounds crazy..But i was so stunned..
Everything just halted..
My laughs..
My fun..
My happiness..
My so-called perfect month..


I know i'm affected by it mentally..
But somehow i kept finding it important to not trouble people with stupid thoughts..
So i put on a smile during the whole time..
I know for a fact that Ron knows something wasn't right..
Coz he asked me whether i was ok and i replied, "yeah im fine"..
We did not talk much after that..And he kinda kept silent the whole time..
I Respected the fact that he did not wanna talk or even ask me about why i seem diff..
I mean how hard is it to see if someone is troubled..
The human face contains lotsa secrets..
And whether we like it or not, the face reveals our feelings and what’s really going on deep down inside i guess..
But he just keep silent..


I need to find somewhere peaceful to think and maybe talk to someone..
Recently I made a patch with two of the nicest people i know..
To contact each other if we had any probs..
But one too far away and ones probably too busy..
Sorry guys..

I'm Jamal..
I'm heading to Seletar Reservoir now..
Gonna be back later..