Growing Up Sucks..

I knew this was coming..
Well no point trying to hide it i guess..
I guess everyone knows the carefree happy-go-lucky image i portray in everyday life..
I guess I did try my best to cover it up but sooner or later it will come back..
These sleepless nights are venomous fangs of life itself..
Its shockingly scary but its worth the thought..
Truth is, I'm Scared..Of Everything..
The Future..
The Present..
The Lost of loved ones..
The Growing up..
The idea of being forgotten..
The Everything..
And thus I'm coming clean..

I believed that when i was in school..
I gave no thought to this..
I mean who does..Its secondary school..
It was the prime was my current life..
There's friends everywhere i turn to..
At every corner and every turn..
There's a familiar face..
Its when you graduated from School..
The friends you once saw everyday at every turn of every corner starts to disappear..
Right now i can name two groups of people that i really spend time with..
All the friends i had in school merely reduced to two groups of close friends..
And its really coincidental how i even got to know the two groups..








I've witness first hand how people who hang out with you suddenly fade away..
And I've witnessed first hand how enjoyable it is to have new people hanging out..
What i have learned from this was that..
It may be hard to accept someone new in your life..
But it gets easier to manage as you go on..
But its harder to see someone old fade away from your life..
And it gets harder to forget it as TIME flies by..


Just what is it with TIME that has us all freaked out..
Time..Is Unforgiving..
Time..Is Evil yet Innocent..
It waits for no one..
It stops for no one..
Time lets us build our tower of card and destroys it just before it is done..
Like having fun during holidays before realizing that you have 24 hours left to do your work..
Its almost as if Time is mocking and playing us..
Is TIME really that Evil?

So who are your close friends..?
Who will be my close friends..?
I wanna stay in contact with my friends..
I don't wanna be forgotten..
After pondering hard over those questions..
I realized the only answer i could make out was..
Only TIME will tell..
So what is it with this "TIME"?

I know i may not be the guy you turn to..
I know some of you think i think too much..
I don't care that much..All im asking for is..
Not to lose contact..You know who you are..

I'm Jamal..
I'm Done..