Afraid.

Finally done with my RJ and stuffs.
Schools been really freaking busy with FYP and stuffs coming up.
I have to come back to school on Wednesday even when i don't have school.
These FYP meetings are taking everything.
And the stupid NS shit are going to take my Saturdays which means less time for designs.
I think i may need a new direction and a new light in my life.
If you have read my Facebook status.
This was the design i worked on for like 1 whole day without sleep.
Before realizing it is not a good example.
I mean it may look nice and such but it is not a good example to
promote the product. So its back to the drawing board.




The final design did.
The image itself is not that good but i was too sick and tired
not mentioning sleepy to do it properly.
I need to really reconsider my designs next time.

I'm Jamal.
Everybody's got to hold on hope.
That's the last thing that's holding me.

Childish Mindsets..

I read an article lately. It featured a parable about a man with eyeglasses so small, they're unwearable. And the moral of the story is that everything could look terrible depending on what you look through.

Lotsa things happened.
I think I got the situation sorted out.
I mean its dumb to try and get me to feel bad just
coz i have a low tolerance in making people feel bad.
Well if some people can't see themselves in my shoes,
so be it. I can't change a thing.

You get angry when i try to change you.
But when i concentrate on my stuffs, you shrugged your shoulder in disgust.
What nonsense. Well your life is more important than my dreams and my interest.
So what if you can't make time. I have goals to achieve and i have stuffs to do as well.
Its not like im ditching you guys for some other people.
I stayed at home doing all my work.
When i finally got my stuffs together and try to pursue them seriously,
you think im not helping myself.
HAHA. What a joke.
I know it seems like im bad and stuffs.
But i too have dreams and hope i want to accomplish.
I am not a good person, i know.
But sometimes i just have to be selfish to get things done.

Why am i acting as such.
I think i was weak.
A little push and i was gonna apologize.
Well i don't actually need people who don't understand.
Its not anything i can take up anytime.
You wanna talk about responsibilities, talk to my teammates
when they find out why i didnt finish my work.


I'm Jamal.
We don't need hypocrites.

On a Roll Babe.

I'm supposed to go out later to do my design.
But as my previous post says,
I'm really addicted to design.
And what I was supposed to finish later,
I just happened to finish it just a few seconds ago.
Man, I'm on a roll.
If only I was like this everyday.


Anyway, same project different output.
A newsletter layout for the Designer forum
in Straits Times. I haven added the borders and stuffs.
But that all could be done in less than 5 minutes so I'll do it
when I feel like it.

I'm Jamal.
Gosh I'm so tired.
But I smell food.

Lifeless Existence.

I realized I never actually go out anymore.
It could be I'm failing in my social life.
But I guess not as much as Johnboy though.
He went onto facebook and facebook literally went,
'It looks like you frequently go on facebook.
Do you want to make it your homepage?'
Social life fail?

I have no idea.
But I think i may have an addiction
to doing designs and stuffs.
I think it could be due to my
so called 'inexperience-ness'
I'm just trying to learn as much as I go.
I think i got the hang of illustrating in photoshop.
Need to start learning to use A.I soon.
Adobe Illustrator for those who don't get the abbreviated form.

I'm Jamal.
Nothing actually makes sense.
Once you start thinking STRAIGHT.

Not necessarily a good thing.

Finally done with the layout for design studio.
But there is three other designs.
Not sure which one to use.
Today's gonna rain again.
And i need to get me a sketchbook.
I think it better if i have one sketchbook for drafts.
And one final one for final sketch.
But for now, lets just curl up in our beds listening
the song of the rain.

I'm Jamal.
I tried to change your mind a thousand times.
But this will take 'getting used to'.

I'm a Wall.

I'm not too sure about things right now.
But one things for sure, I thought of just doing the production name.
Its not final but I can't sleep anyway.
Well, it's strange. Today is strange.
But work needs to be done.

Everything happens for a reason.
I wish life would just stop teasing me.
And show me where I'm supposed to be.

I'm Jamal.
Fucking hate it.
Don't ask if you don't care.

AH-HAH! its done!

Final design completed!I'm so happy!!!

I'm Jamal.
My feet still hurts.
Idiot. Stupid lady Gaga fault!

Changes are....Good?

Everything keeps changing.
Even designs. One moment its alright.
The next it becomes unacceptable.
I think i need to really get my head straighten out.
I've yet to submit my PD.
I have no idea why.
I have all the stuffs i need to submit it.
I'm just not doing it.
My brains really fried.




My feet hurts.
It hurts even when I walk.
But it suck when i need to pretend its ok.
Even in class. I just shake the pain off.
Fuck! It freaking hurts.

BUT WHAT TO DO.
MEN MUST BE STRONG.
HAHAHA!


Make Art Not War.
A Poster a did a few months back for a module.


I'm Jamal.
Designs killing me.
But I like it.

Meet Me at the Dead Dog.

We bend. We break.
We Just can't stand it.
We've got no money so we're running away.
The times have changed.
So let's demand it.
Well, is there a cure?

Coz everybody knows there's no solution.
Not everybody get what they would like.
I don't wanna be in this place forever.
I don't be here for tonight.

I've been burning the midnight oil more than often these past few days.
With the works of the design studio.
Well i would upload the pics but its just sketches now.
One motivation I do have is seeing Rabin online at this time too.
He's really a fucking role model.





I'll try to upload the finalized designs as soon as i get hold of them.
But for now, i should really be getting back to work.

I'm Jamal.
I'm delusioned from the visions of my past.